Bismillah,

Just got back from Engineering Economics and Entrepreneurship class. Booo.. Lol, honestly i don't even like entrepreneurship, but somehow it taught me a lot. You know, just now, the lecturer have been brainwashing us to change our thinking from an employee to an employer. Why is it in the first place? Because he said, " until when do we have to work for somebody? and you expect your money to maintain that level even after you retired? No way!"

What he said, was actually true. I have experienced working for people and believe me, i don't even like it. It would be fine if i get a good boss, but well I'm kinda unfortunate to get one. So the moment i feel like, " why i should be your kuli?" thus it makes me think i should study better and work harder and be the boss one day. Well, how can i not think about this, when i see my mom's work time so flexible. She can work at home, and just go out for appointment with the client, but at the same time working on professional stuff.

But the thing is, i kinda find out that i don't have much passion for money. Usually, entrepreneurs have good eye on money. But i don't. So here it comes, the topic.

It's not that i don't have any motives to have money, a lot of them. But i don't have the drive. Like every time i see money, is like,"ohh ok, no need that, not necessary." That why when i did the so called business in designing, it didn't work out. Because i don't feel like asking money from people, though obviously i did the job. However, when the time comes, like i need for food, money run out from bank, then baru nak terkial cucuk duit celah celah mana. Because i don't like to ask money from parents. What they give, i just accept.

So then, it appears that, the word necessary has been mingle out in my mind. Like, "necessity is the mother of invention." Thus it makes me think, maybe because i don't feel necessity to have money. Maybe if i change the necessary things, maybe i would be more interested in finding more money. Like yeah, when it comes to me, what money are for? To spend on clothes, on gadgets etc. Everything goes to me. And what i see is that,  i have it all in this state, what more could i ask? New phones? Well, my iPhone 4s still working very well, no major fractured. Notebook? Alhamdulillah more than enough. Clothes, yup, that stuff i need to change all the time. Hahah.

But here is the point, maybe i should find what drives me. As if like, " I wanna drive an Audi A8, so need to work it out from now." Things like that maybe. Hopefully it works. Maybe if you have a mindset to find money for the people you love, like family, kids, it drives you greatly. C'mon parent won't stay put if the kids are not comfortable.

And plus, the lecturer said, to have an entrepreneur mind, Never Give Up! So yup, i have two things i will not give up from now. Australia and You. Will not! Ill try my very best and make it last. Insya ALLAH. #Kipidap

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