Bismillah.

“Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart”

Bismillah. Praise to Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

Alhamdulillah, I'm finally inspired to update my blog despite the laziness (Masya Allah) in the holy month.

Check on the possible opportunities you may get, from company that you intend to work in the future. For example some companies especially research companies, pay much attention on the staff having master degree. Hence, in some cases, you may get sponsored to continue your master. 

1. Find the test date that is suitable according to your schedule here: https://www.britishcouncil.my/exam/ielts/dates-fees-locations 
2. Bare in mind, that is just the rough date to inform you when the test will be held, but if you click the register button, you will find two dates given for each academic test. Speaking test and Writing test. Basically, speaking test only required you to speak with the examiner for about 11 minutes while the Writing Test will take up about 3 hours since you gonna have listening, reading and writing test at the same hall back to back. 
3. Just follow the instruction when you register online and make sure to have RM850 in your bank account. Further instruction will be given, as you need to scan your IC and passport picture for the registration.
4. As soon, you receive the email that your registration is successful, you will get access to roadtoIELTS for self-study. It will greatly help you to make you familiar on the format and such. So, study your ass off!
5. Baca doa, all the best!!
6. The result will be out 13 days after your writing test. 

Okay, I think this should be enough 🙆




Anything, please comment down below kay. So that I don't have to repeat myself (Just In Case).

Hello there, again!

Hello, i'm back! Back with a great news, i must say. So during my first period when i entered Petronas Research for my internship, i got really inspired with the write up by Petronas staffs in the Petronas portal (wasn't expecting that their story will be fun and interesting). I must admit those whose stories are published, are so talented in writing. I would giggle alone, on how they describe their children would eat their homework. So i got immersed in the writing world, and coincidently, there was sort of announcement by one of the department in Petronas telling those who are interested to share their generation stories could give a try. So, there is where i get in.

I submitted my story on february and hoping to get a reply after a month. But well, with a project that got me busy, i hardly realize the clock is ticking. It's almost Raya! Suddenly, my dad posted a picture showing my story is on the portal. I was surprised (of course i thought i'm not that talented to be on the portal). The fact, that i want to share this story on my blog, is to remind myself, sometimes, you just got to do what you want to do. Whether it makes to the end, or not, it doesn't really matter. What matter is you give a try! (it worth all the efforts to brainstorm the storyline).

Hello there!

Well, if you notice, i have not been writing about friends for awhile. This is probably because, currently i'm doing my 8 months internship boo-yeay!

As the title goes internship is like intense-sheep, yup i have to admit i'm feeling like a sheep, but intense sheep. haha. Everything is so extreme around here. It's the age of responsibilities knocking you down till you need few hours to stand up back. Why sheep? Because i love to eat the sheep, and because the life feels like a sheep life suddenly. You wake up, You eat, You go to work and etc. But well that's not the point here. I'm not here to tell how not exciting my life anymore as it used to be. Well, it's up to me to put up some works or fun activities in my life to make it exciting.

The point is Working Challenge is REAL. Hahaha. Super real. You thought your good in adjusting with new people, well probably you gonna score on that part, but wait till the discussion part, wait till you see the idea running, wait till people defend their ideas. Wait! Till you observe there are so many characters you thought it's in evil fairytales, but here you go, your real-life example. Haha. I'm not saying that any people are bad or such. But somehow you gonna get fascinated to see many kind of characters. Sometimes you will feel down because of others. It looks easy, but haha Patience is so important when dealing with human. Mark it!

Since i have been spending almost six months in research world, i can see the struggle of the research itself. It's not like you gonna get the same result, as you try to follow others step. You may confront with something new, but you have least knowledge about it. You try to read about it, but you still can't empower it. Im telling you, nothing is easy, even though it looks like just an office job, where you don't get burnt by the scorching hot sun while dressing up like a minion, your mind is blown by the science, by the unexplained theory. Haha. Im telling you, comparing the difficulties ain't good lad. Appreciate the challenges of the job, respect those who did lots of thing till their hair turn white. Lol.

No matter how some people says, only the job is important, and nothing else matter, well they are bluffing. The people, the company are as important as the job is, so please make a good choice.

BUt if you are having intense-sheep also, no worries! (I don't come to rescue :P) Bare in mind, internship is just a phase to lift up the veil of the real world and to assist you for a great future (says the lost sheep).

Bismillah,

So it kinda become the hot topic among my ages, that people start to give a thought on who they gonna be married with and some would try to reject the idea of early marriage and say we should have fun and do some silly mistakes. Wait a minute. Whats wrong with that? Thats totally norm.

Well, yup its a norm. Referring to those who claim that as we reached the two series, we must have fun and stuff. I don't deny the fact that fun is good, but my dad always say, not all norms are true, and the worst part it also means "What majority thinks, not always true."

Actually I've been feeling a bit something wrong with the statement of fun and joy. Well, yup as the young generations we tend to spend our youth at it max for fun. But hey? Whats the point of living anyway? And the best deep statement part is, "mati kenal usia ke bro?"

Indeed. Death doesn't come by choice. Choice that we choose to live up to.

Of course, being such curious daughter, i asked my dad what big lessons that you learn during your student life. "The best decision that I've made in my life, is to get married early."

Why? You don't get out-focused. And the best of all having your kids grow up and you guys looks like siblings. Kbai. That's what my parents keep telling anyway.

Bismillah,

As I'm writing this new year post, it reminds me of the days most of us, struggling with Engineering Team Project. Some were tested differently. But i shall conclude based on my experience. Never expects so much, cause expectation kills.

Anyway, it also reminds me of those steps of going to study room alone in the morning, going back at the wee hour. Sometime with friends, sometime without. The thing is i don't necessarily follow people schedule to suits them, and be with them. As we grow up, we learn not to follow others, but to lead, or i must say plan? Not being selfish as a cause, but different people have different priorities. Learn that. Digest that.

Alhamdulillah, despite all those long walk from room to academic block (due to slow pace of mine), we reached 2016, yeah!

So what do i have up in sleeve for 2016? I have motivations and missions. What is my motivation? Well to be honest, i bet you gonna laugh at my motivation.

My motivation is to be someone that i want my child to be.

Like what? I know I'm not yet married. So why so ambitious to have child?

I mean like c'mon, one fine day we all gonna have one. And by that time, we wish our child to listen to us, treat us nicely, don't talk badly, solat awal waktu, no need to nag then gerak. All those.

We are so ambitious to have that good manner child, what about us? The one who gonna nurture them, who they gonna watch as they grow up.

So i believe i should equipped myself with better attitudes to discover the child in me. lelws.

Missions? So i planned my 8 months internship, to fulfil some values each month. To learn, to digest and to practice it. Tada! This is just sneak peaks of what i called my Happiness Project, inspired by the Happiness Project written by Gretchen Rubin.

So farewell for now, already feeling sleepy. Cannot stay up too much. Pray that I'm not lazy to post my travelogue at South Island, New Zealand <3



Love,
Your cheese leleh lover.

Bismillah,

Been pending this post for so + over + ultimate long. Since september.

So yup, as some may know that, me and my friends went to Melbourne on last September, to do some dakwah projects. Alhamdulillah. The process itself was super challenging i must say. Malay nowadays would say," Jiwa kena kental + sado, baru boleh pergi."

Just imagine, the hard works requires one year of commitment. And if one out of ten, or even half of it didn't commit, just imagine the impact. You must be wondering why i say so? Because actually the project requires us to find our own money, well to generate our own money. We went to kelantan-terengganu and even pahang to make sort of summer camp, just to generate money. But what we actually get (financially)? To be honest, it was a failure, for us. Do we really get profit? Nah.. But as time passes, from one event to another. We learn a bit, to me just like a tiny magnitude of small step.

Only Allah knows the struggle actually, to go through a phase where the circle got downsize, because of not so good financial status, and believe me some pull themselves out from the circle due to commitment, and stuff. Yes, indeed the struggle of the mental state was so at it peaks, when nobody actually see our program will come to it success. Months by months of silent, and we were still not buying the ticket.

Wallahi, I admit that it was intimidating to actually pull myself out, but what makes me if i do so? The one who actually suggested Melbourne was me, due to my contacts. And if i pull myself out? What happen to my friends? My circle. With the thought of purifying my niat, and to learn more, to get closer to Allah during this travel, I gave up on stepping out from the circle. I redah je.

When my friends become demotivated, i motivate them. Though every time i hear their weak spirits, my heart cracks bit by bit. But fine, faking up smile is ok, to comfort people. But I must admit, if I don't get inspired by the people there, if I don't get inspired from this ayah;

And when the Prayer is finished, then may ye disperse through the land, and seek of the Bounty of Allah. and celebrate the Praises of Allah often (and without stint): that ye may prosper.        (Al-Jumaah:10)

Probably I stop, and step out.

It is so different, wallahi. The circle there, compare to us here. They are so bonded to each other and i just want to share the warmth of the love with my friends, here in Malaysia. To actually able to experience it is subhanALLAH.

I have always dreamt a travel where, i feel so peaceful, and i learned a lots of things in it. But this time round i feel so lacking, maybe because i was expecting myself to learn much more. But Allah allows me to learn just basic things about relationship with the people. Maybe I'm lacking of it.

Anyway, the point is, every time you see the people so happy on the pictures (probably at oversea) please please, don't have the thought of, " untunglah die." You never know the struggle to achieve that point if you never experience it. One day, if opportunity knocks, never give up. Never ever give up on your dream. Thats what my dad say about me. If I want something to happen, ill definitely work hard no matter what.

So here we are :

Bismillah,



Recently, my dad just got himself into small surgery. When i heard the news, (on my way to Kedah with my besties) I got myself into tears. Read it, and i went silent. My friend was shocked since i was laughing with her. I just cannot.... Its my dad kot. My superhero, superman, batman, spiderman.. all of em. So i got sick that day. Crying and praying. Hoping it was not true. I had fever on the way back. I looked like a sick bag, ate at Kapitan, just to cheer myself with good food.

So, after that moment, i keep wanting to FT with my dad, just want to keep in touch with him. As the eldest, i feel pretty bad, for not being at home with parents, having difficulties (with no maid issue). Now my dad got sick. So i was so focused on getting back. I just don't care what happen, all i want is go back home, and take care my sick dad.

When i was at home, my mom told us, He went marathon, going for 5km, but only completed half way, and his chest felt like bursting. Went for medical checkup looks like something wrong. Allah is Great. For him who regularly went to gym, and always jog, he got sick. Allah is so powerful to take that nikmat sehat.

So when I'm at home, i try to do stuff, with the intention, well dis is the least i can do, while I'm home. And suddenly he has bruises on his thigh, which make him so in pain when walking, when seating. It crushes me so much. I didn't realise until he got sick on my besties' wedding day. He was terjenket2 jalan and looked so pale. His nose bleed.

So after that, we had to buy him a stick, but he didn't want to use it. Well, with his pace, and pain, we can't walk too much in the big IOI city, can we? So I just be his stick, papah him with all mights. C'mon he is my dad! He is the one who carry me when i was a child with his might, so i guess, its my turn to be mighty. Mihmih. People might see him as a sick man walking by, but hey his my dad, if he wants Nandos, we'll go there!

Seeing my dad's bruises, it reminds me how he always carry my luggage from upstairs with that feet, he carries heavy stuff, with that feet, he goes to mosque regularly, with that feet, he goes to work in order to feed these 4 kids, with that feet, pay the expensive tuition fees, with that feet. "AND WHICH FAVORS OF UR LORD, WILL U DENY?"

SubhanALLAH.

I learned big lessons today, I will always always pray hard for my parents and I want to make them happy while they are still alive.

And as I went back to campus, i feel grateful that I'm studying at local. Glad that i can be home, if anything happen. Glad that i don't have to be worries, miles away. Just can't imagine my friends who are very very very very far away. What would they feel if their parents got sick?

As we grow up, we learned the word responsibilities. It comes naturally. With the self belonging to our family. Certainly our parents are getting older, aint younger. We know anything can happens. We know, we must keep praying for them, because we are their children, their saham akhirat. So, guys, always always always remember ur parents in every prayer.

Gardens of perpetual residence; they will enter them with whoever were righteous among their fathers, their spouses and their descendants. And the angels will enter upon them from every gate, [saying], upon you for what you patiently endured. And excellent is the final home." (13:23-24)

Bismillah.

So yup, today i went to a make up seminar with my beloved friends, and guess what, the thing that i learned and can only remember is BB cream and foundation are two different things, and like BB cream is much more thinner while foundation is so thick which will make the user, looks flawless. I like to see make up people but also scared of them too. Haha, they look like a doll, which scares me out to see alive barbie. Yet, i was supposed to learn something and practice the technique, but i guess not enough passion on it, since it gonna take a long time of preparation. But c'mon, nothing's easy right. Sokay, keep it later for hubsy.

After that, yada yada doing ETP stuff, and i got bored and i was like, "I should watch some movies." and after 5 minutes i got bored and started to read something. I read Dr. Halina's blogs. Well she's so talented mother, and i like all her post since it always push my giggles buttons. Lol. What can be more amusing than that. I guess, now i enjoy reading more than watching movie. Not sure whether it's like another phase of being a woman, but yeah, I'm enjoying. Well to be honest, i don't even like to read before this since i easily get bored, and since study is a routine, but nowadays, i feel my brain is just so empty. Is like, what did i learn today, what did i read, what did i see? Is it something that would benefits me?

Well these days, I'm stuck with diagnosis novel written by the doctors. Love it to bits! I mean like, wow! A doctor always write something meaningful, since they keep doing the same routine yet learning and confronting with many kinds of people. Its gotta be good! Salute!

Some people ask, wanna have a doctor hubsy? Nahh... Im good with engineer. Lol. Doctor is someone amazing who have big patience to handle the society. But, haha not preferred as my partner. And somehow i began to wonder is there any engineer who writes something amusing like the doctor do? Need to get some inspiration from those people. I mean, i gotta see engineer's jobs are also honoured and have a high value of contribution in the society level. It just that i can't just see it yet. Yet.

Talking about Dr Halina's blog, she really reminds me of my own supermom. Well, my mom is quite organised ppl also. She will go crazy when the kids don't follow the schedule. Well, who follows it? Home is vacation, home  is vacation. Lol. But as we grew up, every friday night, my parents would be telling us, what we are supposed to do tomorrow, just to remind us, don't sleep till afternoon, we have things to do. And guess the turn out? Krik krik. Haha. But I'm still working for my responsibilities as a daughter. Still working on it.

Anyway, just like Dr Halina, my mom also post some conversations she had with my little sister, which is meaningful and work as reminder for others. She writes ( you know where i get this passion right? ). She loves to remind people about current issues and always tag us with news, just in case this daughter living in the forest knows what is happening in the KL. Im glad to have her. Its pretty awesome you see, to write and remember back all the good times, the funny times with your kids, and I'm so gonna cry when i have one. Haha. I mean mom instinct is just so in me, right now. I fall head over heals to see baby giggles and just want to hold them and play with them. Cant wait for motherhood more than wifehood. haha.

Bismillah,

Just got back from Engineering Economics and Entrepreneurship class. Booo.. Lol, honestly i don't even like entrepreneurship, but somehow it taught me a lot. You know, just now, the lecturer have been brainwashing us to change our thinking from an employee to an employer. Why is it in the first place? Because he said, " until when do we have to work for somebody? and you expect your money to maintain that level even after you retired? No way!"

What he said, was actually true. I have experienced working for people and believe me, i don't even like it. It would be fine if i get a good boss, but well I'm kinda unfortunate to get one. So the moment i feel like, " why i should be your kuli?" thus it makes me think i should study better and work harder and be the boss one day. Well, how can i not think about this, when i see my mom's work time so flexible. She can work at home, and just go out for appointment with the client, but at the same time working on professional stuff.

But the thing is, i kinda find out that i don't have much passion for money. Usually, entrepreneurs have good eye on money. But i don't. So here it comes, the topic.

It's not that i don't have any motives to have money, a lot of them. But i don't have the drive. Like every time i see money, is like,"ohh ok, no need that, not necessary." That why when i did the so called business in designing, it didn't work out. Because i don't feel like asking money from people, though obviously i did the job. However, when the time comes, like i need for food, money run out from bank, then baru nak terkial cucuk duit celah celah mana. Because i don't like to ask money from parents. What they give, i just accept.

So then, it appears that, the word necessary has been mingle out in my mind. Like, "necessity is the mother of invention." Thus it makes me think, maybe because i don't feel necessity to have money. Maybe if i change the necessary things, maybe i would be more interested in finding more money. Like yeah, when it comes to me, what money are for? To spend on clothes, on gadgets etc. Everything goes to me. And what i see is that,  i have it all in this state, what more could i ask? New phones? Well, my iPhone 4s still working very well, no major fractured. Notebook? Alhamdulillah more than enough. Clothes, yup, that stuff i need to change all the time. Hahah.

But here is the point, maybe i should find what drives me. As if like, " I wanna drive an Audi A8, so need to work it out from now." Things like that maybe. Hopefully it works. Maybe if you have a mindset to find money for the people you love, like family, kids, it drives you greatly. C'mon parent won't stay put if the kids are not comfortable.

And plus, the lecturer said, to have an entrepreneur mind, Never Give Up! So yup, i have two things i will not give up from now. Australia and You. Will not! Ill try my very best and make it last. Insya ALLAH. #Kipidap

P/s: 전쟁이야

Hello there,

It has been a long time i guess. Pretty busy with some sort of things. Well, we gonna have our final actually  on this beautiful friday :)
So yes, sorta busy with the preparations and studying.

But anyway, whats with the family and friends thingy? Well, totally wrong if you think I'm talking the priority of both..

What i meant, they are the same people :)) In campus life, all of us are far away from family, some across the sea. across the continental, so friends are our family :3

In this post I would like to convey my full gratitude of having, knowing, being their friends :)

Yes, people make mistakes, i believe so. I get to know a lot of people. Some are nerdy, some with the wrong attitude, some are grumpy, some are snobbish, some are hot temper, some are whatever bad things that we can find in human beings. But the fact, doesn't change which is people changes :)

Despite all of the treatments good, bad, better :) I appreciate all those, cause I know, deep in every one of them, they love and they care, but they don't really know how to show it :))

I love each of them to the star and back :)

Just be positive, life is a process of learning. We learn from people, we learn from nature. But the choice is ours :)

Having you guys, are the best moment, happiest, coolest in my life journey. Just to let you know, each of you make me happy all along :))

For some people, who were closed to me when we were in foundation :) just to tell you I've been always missing those moments :) and i will cherish it <3